Life Lately

I've been in one of those dazes lately that comes along with feeling a little lost. Time seems to be flying by, deadlines looming and passing, christmas is coming and the first term at uni disappearing very rapidly. I feel like everything is passing me by and I just can't seem to keep up. You know those moments where you feel like you can't seem to keep your head above water?

Recently I've come to be very appreciative of the people I have in my life. I have a really wonderful group of people around me and I couldn't be more grateful. But I just don't seem to be able to find the time lately to keep up with every single one of them. Not saying that there's loads, only a handful in fact, but I just seem to be a little off balance at the moment.

I'm sure this is a passing phase and problems like this arise more and more as we grow up *gasp* I guess it's all just a game of push and pull; having to find a way to spin all the plates without dropping any.

I feel like I know what I want to be doing but I'm lost in this overwhelming space, I don't know how to describe it. Things are all just moving a bit fast and I'm stood here wanting it all to slow down. Cliché right?

 I'm very quickly heading to the big 20 and that symbolises some scary things for me. I'm not quite ready to not be a teenager anymore. I know it's only a spelling change and I won't wake up the morning of my birthday a different person (no matter how much I thought I would at 13) but it just shows, years are going by and things are changing. It's a weird thing to think about.

Maybe it's good to just get swept along with everything, I just hate feeling like I don't have any control as to where it's taking me.

I guess I'm not the only one to feel like this, anyone else feel like this year has gone way too fast?

Beth xo